A post on grief, by my good friend Amy. She’s “GF” in the Satan McMurderson stories, and has posted some interesting thoughts (and a lot of stories of her own) on grief. It’s incredibly personal but it might help some people deal with their own.

Additionally, she goes over her time with Satan McMurderson (chapter 8). All in all, she’s a fucking trooper and one of the strongest people I know and I respect and love her dearly. I am happy things are looking up for her now and I hope for nothing but her happiness and success in the future.

The anatomy of an awful human being, part four

Yes, the previous spat was pretty bad, but I think anyone who basically reads the following e-mail will look at it and go, “are you fucking joking?”

Here is some backstory, though, so you understand why this is all going down: he broke up with his girlfriend of many years for some really fucking random reason. At some point when he had just moved into his new house, he decided to “confess” to my current girlfriend, basically out of the blue. My girlfriend, flabbergasted, looked at him dead in the eye and basically said “you are a fucking idiot.”

She, of course, didn’t want the relationship to implode upon itself, so she didn’t tell me anything had happened. Of course, Satan at some point spoke to some random person (a teacher friend of his from a school, if you recall), that enlightened him, and he decided to come clean with me. When he did, it wasn’t apologetically or admitting he had done something wrong.

Nope, he thought he was doing something good for bae. From what I understand, basically, he thought he was rescuing bae from me because I am apparently the worst human on the planet. And then he let me know like we were still cool, because he had told me, and that meant he was honest and a trustworthy guy. I can’t make this shit up.

I eventually ‘made up’ with him but kept him very much at arm’s length, because the dude is out of his goddamn mind. Eventually I joked around and made a post on his Facebook while he stayed logged onto a device, saying “PROTIP: Log off of Facebook when you’re done, [Satan].” or something to that extent, and he got hella mad at me and accused me of hacking and invading his privacy and basically escalated it to some insane level of… well, insane.

It all escalates to a few of the e-mails I’ve already posted here — a timeline which is kind of out of order, but fuck it, I’m just dumping this because I’m bored, he got brought up again (he always manages to come up in conversation because it’s like an old war story), and someone needs to laugh with me at this so that I can convince myself that it’s laugh-worthy.

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From: Satan McMurderson
To: Me

You must take time to relax and think. Ask yourself a simple question. Why do most of my friends love and respect me? What do I do that allows people to trust me? What do i do that makes people believe in me?
 
I must be doing something right. Whether you hate me or not, you do have to admit that I have a lot of great devoted friends and family. They are proud of my hard work and dedication. They know that I will help them or be there for them anytime they need me. [Bae] has trusted me to help her many times in her life and that’s why I trust her. [Bob] and all the great people who come to my parties, get togethers, and etc. certainly enjoy my company and even rely upon me in times of need. I do not pay them or trick them or use any sort of influence. They just know I’m a good trustworthy guy. And the police come to many parties when they are too loud or overcrowded with cars. That is a normal occurrence that happens with big parties so please don’t hold that against me. And by the way, I cut down many trees and killed many wasps attacking my neighbors’ yards to repay for that incident because they walked over and asked me to do so and I did it without argument.
 
Haven’t you noticed how respectful and honest I’ve been with you? I don’t play games. I don’t violate privacy. I don’t try to hurt you.
 
If you truly wanted to make amends and be friends, then you would have responded differently to my email. You would have asked important questions and perhaps even said “Hey [Satan], I did not know that you considered me a threat, let’s try and talk about this because maybe there’s a misunderstanding.” But instead you responded with more horrible insults, judgements, and negative comments. If someone responds that way, how can I not consider them a threat?
 
If you need to know why you are a threat, it’s because of the way you speak and treat me. I would never say such horrible things to you or anyone unless they killed my parents or something. When I read the emails you have sent me, I feel dirty, almost like a criminal. But then I remember that i am not anything like what you say about me. If I was that horrible of a person as the way you describe me, then I would want to kill myself.
 
Thank god that I have a healthy self-esteem because your words are truly hurtful. I have lost so much sleep and had such depressing conversations with friends and family because of you. You make me feel like the worst human being in the world even though I am constantly thinking positive and trying to be happy and helpful. It just flat-out hurts to read your emails. I really wish you could just read your emails and pretend that someone had written them to you. They are truly awful and I can’t imagine why you have so much hate in your soul.
 
Regardless, an apology no longer matters anymore. You would have to prove yourself through actions. You would have to prove that you are an amazing and responsible person by doing things that help your family, friends, and community. Borrowing hundreds of dollars to go to a videogame event when you are already in debt is hardly a good example. Sending hate emails is not a good example. Just relax and think about things before you do them in the future. Set an example for others.
 
In case you think I’m still a horrible person, think about everything that I do. I bought a house and I maintain it by working hard on it. I allow all friends and family to come over at anytime because I know that they want to have fun and get away from their problems for a while. When I was younger, I always visited friends because it was nice to get away. That’s why I NEVER say no to my friends and family when they want to come over. I will sacrifice sleep and anything just for them because I know it makes them happy and I feel the happiest when they are happy. I also help family and friends with their own problems and deal with mine at the same time. I am always willing to go on adventures, drive to gainesville, or do whatever it takes to make people happy. Why do I do it? Because I love my friends and family. I would rather take my family and friends out to dinner and pay for them instead of buying videogames. I truly enjoy making others happy.
 
Maybe that’s a sad and pathetic way to live. Maybe the way I am drives you nuts and makes you think I am retarded. Maybe I am ANNOYING and difficult to deal with at times. But I am a hardworking person with a good soul. I know that I make mistakes, but I make mistakes while trying to help others. I never do things for selfish reasons. I do not write hate emails and text messages. I simply live a happy life and let others tag along because it feels nice to have everyone with me and I know it makes them happy. I hate being alone. I am scared of being alone because life is too short and the world is too big to explore alone. That’s why i charge [Bob] HALF the price to live in my home. He only pays $300 per month. I could easily charge $600 or more for someone to live in a full-size home. But I love that kid and everyone in my life. [Schmoe], [Curly], [Randolph], and many others have slept over my house countless times and I never charge them or ask anything of them. We are just good friends who have fun and respect each other.
 
How many times have I tried to help you? I have given you advice, given you money, driven you places, done whatever it takes to help you get back on your feet. And you repay me with hate mail? If you don’t think your emails are hateful, then just go back and count how many curse words and insults you throw out there. You don’t have to apologize, just be a great man and respect people. People shouldn’t have to demand or ask for respect. I respect everyone when I first meet them and I continue to respect them until they do something stupid and hurtful. And even after they do such a thing, I try to work it out. But only a fool forgives someone and gets hurt by the same person multiple times.
 
I have been a fool for worrying about you and trying to forgive you multiple times. I have lost too much sleep and seen too much sadness out of [bae] and [gf] to continue worrying about you. Now I simply want to move on and maybe in a few years, your actions will speak louder than any hate mail you have written to me. Maybe your positive good actions will erase my negative memories of you and help create new positive memories of you. That is the same wish I have for [trumpeter] and anyone else who may ever try to hurt me. The world is full of opportunities and second chances. Maybe everyone who makes mistakes can turn themselves around eventually. But it takes time and positive actions. Anyone can do it if they truly want to improve their way of life.
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LADIES AND GENTLEMEN WE HAVE ACHIEVED THE NEXT LEVEL OF GODDAMN OUT OF ONE’S MIND
The following was the next e-mail in line before the “I only want to be friends to help you” e-mail.
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From: Me
To: Satan McMurderson

You must take time to relax and think. Ask yourself a simple question. Why do most of my friends love and respect me? What do I do that allows people to trust me? What do i do that makes people believe in me?
Because you are a fundamentally nice person, for the most part. Lately you haven’t been.
 
Haven’t you noticed how respectful and honest I’ve been with you? I don’t play games. I don’t violate privacy. I don’t try to hurt you.
This is up for debate.
 
If you truly wanted to make amends and be friends, then you would have responded differently to my email. You would have asked important questions and perhaps even said “Hey [Satan], I did not know that you considered me a threat, let’s try and talk about this because maybe there’s a misunderstanding.” But instead you responded with more horrible insults, judgements, and negative comments. If someone responds that way, how can I not consider them a threat?
Because you’re ignorant. You’ve known me for more than 6 years. If you’ve known me for so long and you can so easily consider me a “threat,” then you have to be ignorant.
 
If you need to know why you are a threat, it’s because of the way you speak and treat me. I would never say such horrible things to you or anyone unless they killed my parents or something. When I read the emails you have sent me, I feel dirty, almost like a criminal. But then I remember that i am not anything like what you say about me. If I was that horrible of a person as the way you describe me, then I would want to kill myself.
Slow down here, kid. As far as I know, I have yet to call you Hitler. I said things that are accurate (ie. that you are passive-aggressive, that you have a holier-than-thou personality, that you irritate others with said things). If you think they’re not accurate, ask people around you to be brutally honest and tell them whether you are both of these things. Also promise to not be angry, but that you simply want to know if it’s true. Ask the people that are actually close to you.
 
Thank god that I have a healthy self-esteem because your words are truly hurtful. I have lost so much sleep and had such depressing conversations with friends and family because of you. You make me feel like the worst human being in the world even though I am constantly thinking positive and trying to be happy and helpful. It just flat-out hurts to read your emails. I really wish you could just read your emails and pretend that someone had written them to you. They are truly awful and I can’t imagine why you have so much hate in your soul.
The problem is that I don’t hate you. I’m just fed up with your shit. Constantly thinking positive and trying to be happy when you push your friends away from you is what most people would consider douchebaggery.
 
Regardless, an apology no longer matters anymore. You would have to prove yourself through actions. You would have to prove that you are an amazing and responsible person by doing things that help your family, friends, and community. Borrowing hundreds of dollars to go to a videogame event when you are already in debt is hardly a good example. Sending hate emails is not a good example. Just relax and think about things before you do them in the future. Set an example for others.
Borrowing hundreds of dollars that I paid back immediately, for an event where people appreciate my help, where I’ve done a good deal of networking, for an event that I’ve put on my resumé and has helped me get a job in the field I want… know what, Mike? Let me know when your life experience becomes relevant to my own. Good luck with that (it isn’t).
Since you feel that way though, I’ll drop off the $80 at your house tomorrow (or on Saturday if possible).
 
In case you think I’m still a horrible person, think about everything that I do. I bought a house and I maintain it by working hard on it. I allow all friends and family to come over at anytime because I know that they want to have fun and get away from their problems for a while. When I was younger, I always visited friends because it was nice to get away. That’s why I NEVER say no to my friends and family when they want to come over. I will sacrifice sleep and anything just for them because I know it makes them happy and I feel the happiest when they are happy. I also help family and friends with their own problems and deal with mine at the same time. I am always willing to go on adventures, drive to gainesville, or do whatever it takes to make people happy. Why do I do it? Because I love my friends and family. I would rather take my family and friends out to dinner and pay for them instead of buying videogames. I truly enjoy making others happy.
Actually, you like making yourself happy. You like surrounding yourself with people who make you happy. Whenever someone does not make you happy, you are very quick to lash out or get irritated. You are also really, really good at putting other people down (you did so about me to [trumpeter], for instance, and vice versa when he got angry at you) and essentially inventing things about them in your head, so please spare me this. We’ve been down this road.
 
Maybe that’s a sad and pathetic way to live. Maybe the way I am drives you nuts and makes you think I am retarded. Maybe I am ANNOYING and difficult to deal with at times. But I am a hardworking person with a good soul. I know that I make mistakes, but I make mistakes while trying to help others. I never do things for selfish reasons. I do not write hate emails and text messages. I simply live a happy life and let others tag along because it feels nice to have everyone with me and I know it makes them happy. I hate being alone. I am scared of being alone because life is too short and the world is too big to explore alone. That’s why i charge [Bob] HALF the price to live in my home. He only pays $300 per month. I could easily charge $600 or more for someone to live in a full-size home. But I love that kid and everyone in my life. [Schmoe], [Crikey], [Randolph], and many others have slept over my house countless times and I never charge them or ask anything of them. We are just good friends who have fun and respect each other.
I know you’re afraid of being alone. It’s why I know why you make the decisions you do. I understand you better than you think I do.
 
How many times have I tried to help you? I have given you advice, given you money, driven you places, done whatever it takes to help you get back on your feet. And you repay me with hate mail? If you don’t think your emails are hateful, then just go back and count how many curse words and insults you throw out there. You don’t have to apologize, just be a great man and respect people. People shouldn’t have to demand or ask for respect. I respect everyone when I first meet them and I continue to respect them until they do something stupid and hurtful. And even after they do such a thing, I try to work it out. But only a fool forgives someone and gets hurt by the same person multiple times.
There’s a lot of truth in between the shits and the fucks, trust me. When I get angry about something, I swear a lot. It’s the reason why my previous e-mails to these have been curt and to the point. The reason I know you don’t read anything is because even then, you never really absorbed what I had to say to you. If you aren’t going to read anything I say, I might as well swear a lot; you aren’t going to read it anyway.
 
I have been a fool for worrying about you and trying to forgive you multiple times. I have lost too much sleep and seen too much sadness out of [bae] and [gf] to continue worrying about you. Now I simply want to move on and maybe in a few years, your actions will speak louder than any hate mail you have written to me. Maybe your positive good actions will erase my negative memories of you and help create new positive memories of you. That is the same wish I have for [trumpeter] and anyone else who may ever try to hurt me. The world is full of opportunities and second chances. Maybe everyone who makes mistakes can turn themselves around eventually. But it takes time and positive actions. Anyone can do it if they truly want to improve their way of life.
I like how this is still about what did to you.
Let me just say it straight, so you’ll understand: this is pretty much about how you’ve treated me over the last year or so and my getting fed up with it. This isn’t about how you’re happy and cool. This is about you not realizing you often act like an entitled asshole, and subsequently how you can’t understand why anyone would be angry at you about it. You have your redeeming qualities, Mike — everyone does. But I simply choose to not take those over your bad ones anymore, because your bad ones got too obvious to ignore. Deal with it.
Also, I know you’re going to reply with something like “well you have your bad qualities but I stood by you” and I’m going to preemptively call bullshit on that. If you don’t understand why, please recall what you did earlier this year and get bent.
- [nothingxs]

The anatomy of an awful human being, part three

Sometime after I stopped being friends with Satan McMurderson, I still kept in touch with his girlfriend (because she’s actually a Cool Person™ who I spoke with regularly before that and god forbid I continue being friends with people who are nice), and talked all sorts of fun shit, etc.

We were all hanging out together, my bae, the Trumpeter, the gf and I, and she had taken pictures of a bunch of kittens that she had (that Satan McMurderson now basically holds hostage) and, at my insistence, showed me. They are pretty awesome cats, and I hope she can get them back.

Well, because she didn’t want to hide anything from Satan McMurderson, she told him that I’d seen the cats in a passing comment.

The following e-mail chain ensued.

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From: Satan McMurderson
To: Me

Do not talk to my family and friends

I thought it was obvious after you insulted and betrayed me, but clearly you forgot last night. You cannot talk to [gf] or any of my family and friends again. You do not have the right to ask for photos of anything occuring in my house, even if it’s a group of cute kittens. You lost the right to have any involvement in my life when you insulted and betrayed me. You made poor decisions and now must suffer the consequences of your actions. I went through this same process with [trumpeter] when he betrayed me, so I hope you follow in his footsteps and stay out of my life. If not, I will consider you a threat and inform the police or whatever legal body necessary in order to keep you out of my life. I hope we do not have any more issues in the future. Thank you.

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Me:

I can talk to anyone I want. Bye.

Let me add something to this, before you waste your time informing “the police or whatever legal body necessary” so that you can save yourself time and embarrassment, talking to [gf] does not constitute talking to you, and I do not involve myself in your life when I do so. I’m okay with you hanging out with [bae], and she’s my girlfriend. Not only that, I’m okay with this despite our mutual history of what you’ve done. This happens to be a two-way street. Please take your hypocritical stance on this and shove it, because I honestly don’t give a fuck. Additionally, when you initiate contact with me, you don’t get to claim… much of anything. Besides the fact that I’ve already established that don’t want anything to do with you, I don’t get where you get off with being able to claim that I am a threat because of that. Good luck explaining that to “the police or whatever legal body necessary” and let me know how it works out.

Also, please do not ever for any reason talk about “betrayal” ever — the person who was on thin ice for a while was you, and I already told you: lately you’ve been a douchebag. Right now, with this e-mail, you’re being a douchebag. I sent you a bunch of text messages detailing what I thought was wrong with you lately and why I was going to stop hanging out with you until you figured your shit out, and you just ignored them and told me to “stop spamming” — if you had read any of them, you would’ve realized these are all very valid concerns I had with you.
Other people have these exact same concerns, namely people close to you who will never say anything because they know talking to you doesn’t do a goddamn thing and they’d rather avoid “drama”. Facebook doesn’t cause drama, buddy, you cause drama. With stupid bullshit e-mails like this. That’s one of many reasons [trumpeter] originally stopped talking to you: he knows it’s more trouble talking to you than it’s worth. Remember your speaking Chinese joke? That’s probably how 99% of people feel like when they talk to you.
I recently considered the possibility of calling you to see if you’d stopped being an asshole, but between the fact that it took someone calling the cops for you to learn to respect your neighbors and this e-mail, I think we can both agree that you’re still an asshole. Please don’t e-mail me to waste my time with stupid bullshit like this again.
By the way, in case it wasn’t clear, I still considered you a friend to some degree before you wrote this e-mail. I think you’re smart enough to know where your last e-mail officially leaves us.
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Him:

I have never once insulted you. I have never called you bad names. I have never cursed at you. And I did read all of your emails and text messages. They were all horrible and insulting. I wish you had more respect. Good luck and god bless you when you finally realize that you have many problems that you need to acknowledge and deal with properly. I never stop learning from my mistakes and I continue to ask for advice and grow from my experiences. You should do the same. Maybe you can start by not insulting and disrespecting me because I have not done that to you yet. I have not cursed or insulted you once throughout this “drama”, which you started by hacking my facebook…in case you forgot that small important detail.
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Me:
Listen, until this morning, I had not bothered to dedicate any reasonable amount of my time to you outside of wondering what you were up to briefly at some point. I still don’t intend to, and right now you are making this difficult. I did not “hack” anything of yours (you don’t know the proper meaning of the word), and I did not “invade your privacy” — and I hope you don’t expect an apology among the lines of “sorry for invading your privacy” because you are certainly never getting it. “Sorry for making a joke” seems to be more appropriate.
Anyway, you have already established that you have no interest in reading or internalizing anything I send you. You practically answered none of the concerns in my e-mail and instead sent me something completely unrelated, so I will make things simple. If you don’t want to listen or read, I don’t want to deal with you. I will give you respect to you when you deserve it, and someone who can’t listen can’t possibly hope to demand respect from anyone, and you most certainly won’t get it from me until you deserve it again.
So far, no good.
- [nothingxs]
……….. to be continued in part 4, with the greatest e-mail reply ever

The anatomy of an awful human being, part two

Replies from him to the letter in general. I don’t recall what the actual sequence of events is, but here it is.

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Many people have liked and hurt u in your past and that sucks. I did my best to tell u the truth and accept u in my life. I tried to be better than those people. But u rejected me. Look at my life, family and friends. I’m happy and successful. I wish that for u too. But it won’t happen if u can’t learn from your mistakes. So let’s make a promise to each other. Let’s both learn from our mistakes and move on. Let’s stay friends and go back to the good old days. I’m having a party friday with the usual gang to celebrate the end of the college semester. U should come. We talk no more of the past and have a fresh start. No apologies, just good times.
 
I don’t think u understand the situation. I want to be friends to help u. I actually don’t need u because i have plenty of great friends. But it makes u look bad if u don’t stop the drama. It also isolates u from the group. I’m just trying to help u.
 
You’re being a quitter, just like the old andres. I guess u haven’t changed. Too bad. I thought a good friendship was worth saving.

The anatomy of an awful human being, part one

Guys, a long time ago (approximately three years, actually), I had to deal with a fucking fedora. I didn’t know what a fedora was at the time. I sure wish I did.

I mean, I’m not making this shit up. This person, to this day, still fucks with the people around me, but there’s not much I can do considering the situation is basically fucking backwards.

Even more unfortunate: this dude has a few of my good friends’ cats in his house (basically held hostage), and he lives a few doors down from my girlfriend. Joy!

I have all sorts of awfully hilarious (and depressing) stories to tell about this person, but I have some interesting literature regarding this dude from back in the day.

By the way, if you go to https://twitter.com/MikeTheWiseSage you will see actual, real quotes from this person. This guy is a fucking idiot.

Basically, this person is actually comprised of 72% industrial-grade fedora, 18% water, 10% other. And 300 mph lava. (He thinks it goes that fast.)

The following is a letter I sent him sometime in 2011. His reply to it was this:

"Your email made me realize how dangerous, stupid, and unpredictable u are. I also realized that i didn’t love rachel. I care for her as a friend and want to protect her from u. U like to insult, hurt, and alienate others because people did it to u when u were younger. U wrote that email to satisfy yourself, to get revenge. I told u the truth and accepted u as a man. But your email changed that. I no longer see u as a man, just a sad little boy.

I hope god or some greater power helps u in your life. This is the last time we’ll ever talk unless u have a deep meaningful apology for me and for all the family and friends u have hurt.

Make sure you internalize that before you read my letter. Done? Alright, here you go:

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Since you’re not picking up your phone, and I have studying to do today…

I figure I’ll write you a letter.

Sometime about two to three weeks ago, I was informed (not even by you) that I was no longer welcome in your house. This definitely upset me, and I decided to call you and try to work things out. I made my case to you in a very long phone call, and I had thought that everything would return back to normal. This, of course, was not the case, because you decided that — after a conversation with a “teacher lady” that is friends of yours from work — to do something that was practically unthinkable not a week after the fact.
I have been mulling this entire situation over in my head and I have arrived to a very straightforward conclusion, one that is echoed by a very large number of people from whom I sought advice.
These are the facts:
  • Not three weeks ago, you were completely ready to no longer be friends with me based on a large amount of assumptions and constructs that you put together in your head. You steeled your resolve and came to the conclusion that we were no longer friends. In your own words, “I can control who my friends are.” The very few accusations that stick are very recent, and some of the reasons are downright nonsensical. None of them warrant the sudden banishment that you decided was an appropriate solution to the situation. But I decided to smooth things out, because I figured that it’s what friends are supposed to do, and I thought you were a good person and that it was all just misconceptions. This was the first sign that something was terribly wrong.
  • Soon after, despite my thinking that everything was okay, you decided to “follow your heart” and essentially, again, steel your resolve. This time, it involved [bae]. When you made this decision, you were essentially completely ready to live up to the consequences, which would have been losing our friendship. When you did what you did you essentially had been made up in your mind that the consequences of what might happen did not matter. Maybe this was simply a case of extremely bad judgment, but considering that not a week before this you were already willing to break off any ties with me, it seems that either you never truly made up with me, or you are simply incapable of good judgment.
  • By all accounts, you have apparently been simply looking for excuses to paint me in a negative light to yourself and the people around me. Most importantly, what you have told me about the situation and about people around you contrasts greatly with what people themselves tell me. An example of this: contrary to your claim that [bae] said we would definitely not get married, [bae] insists that she said otherwise (“not yet,” which is the response I was completely sure of). I trust [bae] implicitly, and I definitely trust her more than I trust you, and I will explain to you why I never completely bought your side of the story on this: you mentioned this conversation happened sometime after a wedding, and I distinctly recall the conversation coming up before [bae] hung out with you, and we both agreed — as we do, because we talk about it — that the time is not right, and that I want to graduate and be sure I can take care of her so that I could actually back up my end of the commitment. This conversation comes up every now and then, and we have both repeatedly agreed to it, so what you said made no sense. This reinforces the idea to me that you hear what you want to hear, especially when it comes to things about me.
This means that twice within the span of the month, you were completely ready to no longer be friends with me. Not only that, but you seem completely comfortable with seeing me as an absolute negative person with few redeeming qualities. What’s most striking to me is that you show absolutely no regrets for anything you’ve done, which means that you are completely comfortable with the situation we are in right now. It seems to me that the issues that came up from this entire ordeal are no big deal to you, going so far as to even break the news to me in a way that suggested that you had good news, rather than seeking an apology for your gross lapse in judgment. Even more telling is the fact that my being (understandably) upset at the whole thing and needing time to gather my feelings was met with you by dismissing it by asserting the following, and I quote:
"I’m sure u have done worse in your life than i have. Learn to forgive and forget and stop being dramatic. Regardless, I respect your wish."
I am actually very good at forgiving and forgetting. I have done so with many people a large number of times in the past, because sometimes you just have to brush things aside. Unfortunately, there are a large number of things that you can not brush aside, and this is one of them. Not a single person that I have asked for advice has even remotely suggested the possibility of trying to work things out. The most extreme of them suggest I cut you out of my life entirely (which you and I know is impossible), and not even give you an explanation for it. The fact that you seem to show a complete lack of empathy for me or any remorse for the fact that you could have potentially destroyed a wonderful relationship and great friendship is the most telling of all these things.
So, for a while you had trouble deciding on whether we were friends or not. I will make it easy on you: we aren’t any longer. We were, for a while, for a good length of time. First, acquaintances. Later, good friends. Now? Nothing. I told you once that just deciding for yourself that you would kick me out of my house would not stop me from considering you my friend. If your goal was to make sure that I would stop, you have succeeded — congratulations.
If this letter comes off as somewhat attacking, I apologize — I am extraordinarily angry at you, and it is important to me that you understand why. You once said that someone who was once a friend of yours never gave you a chance to redeem yourself. If what you did then was anything like what you’ve done now, then I can see why.
Don’t call, text or write me back. This is not meant to be a discussion, and it will not be.
Cordially,
[nothingxs]
wouldyouagreethat

wouldyouagreethat:

This is a relatively short forums thread (that I urge people to read fully). Anyone who has tried to engage with Zak will find it frustratingly familiar.

Instead of his pattern of escalation being scattered across half a dozen social media sites, this thread is a textbook exhibit of Zak’s utter hypocrisy, argumentation in bad faith, and and his own brand of distorting facts into lies.

Why any professional would want someone like this associated with their brand is mind boggling, it calls into question the judgement of WotC.